its time to turn in...

i have seen the great beyond.
and drank your welcoming waters.
with tears i have cried in the streams of living things....... and yet i feel so empty

my lips are dry and my heart is rusty. i have forgotten how to speak and say. and in my mind's eye i have....forgotten.......you.

curse me in the early dawn. with you saddle bags of burdens on your shoulders and you careless walk of anger. keep that strangers hand on your arm and run in the fog of loneliness. i was never here.
forget that i was here. wash the walls of my smell and throw away my laugh. bury it if you have too. burn my image from your eyes, and cast out my smile from your mind. my words no longer belong to you. and my heart has been taken back. throw away the key, it will no longer turn in the lock to my heart that once beat so rapidly for you.

throw in away i say! in the ocean............where it will sink and at the bottom of the ocean it will sing a lonely song of heartbreak. the ocean will weep for it.

throw it away i say! high into the mountains. where once buried in snow it will whisper of once great love and cause the mountain to tremble with sadness. throw it away. into the wind. where it will be carried and cry to strangers of what once was.

or keep it for yourself. with the hope that someday. in the dead of night. you can sneak back into my life. and slowly unlock my heart.