all in all
what i used to keep in the small back yard of my memories
i have slowly begun to let die
with the hopes that soon i will replant in the mess
that i have made
newness
and life
for the memories i have torn out of my soul and my mind
and that have left my hands burning and raw
with the desire the fills my soul and makes my eyes
sting
are old ones.
ones that have rotted my teeth and made my dreams
feel foul.
the memory of you.
with your ways that i have pushed against and rebelled
and that have made my life sore with loneliness of
your ................... goodbye
and you
with your selfish plans of late night blow jobs and
hot cum that stays fresh in my mouth and makes me
sick............and your weak kisses of ....nothing
and you.....and with your hands that i still long
to caress my legs and your teeth that smile at me from
between my legs........and your soul that stole mine.....
and you.....
you!
you!
with your secret meeting places and your lustful eyes
that make my legs ache and my lips swell
fuck you....
and last but not least in the back of my mind....
there is you.
with what i knew so well and could understand with the
quick glance in your direction
oh you...with your spirit that i have now forgotten and
with your memories that have begun to blur and fade away
and run down the window panes of my mind like
a rain storm....
washing you away.....
........
away.....